This thread is making me nostalgic. Maybe that's not the correct word.
I too am an exile from China. Part of me wants to go back, but if I'm being honest, it's in large part wanting to go back to China in 2012.
Like Kitano (or at least I think this is what he's saying) I do sometimes wonder if I gave myself to concerns and issues that would and could never love me back.
You want to change the world, or failing that try to change the world, or failing that try to help people who are trying to change the world, and in the end, all you're left with is the feeling of having failed.
But anyway,as I say nostalgic. This really was a great place to be, with really great people. There probably were a few short lived and destructive typhoons I've managed to erase from my memory, but this community was a really nice part of my life.