Just a quick rant, please other angry people contribute
So, I really thought I was achieving something here in China. Working hard, planning lessons, spending time finding new ways to teach and assess, showing up early to do extra work staying late, hanging out with students blah blah blah
Now after talking to a previous employer (which was not such a positive experience) I finally get that all of that was a waste. Aside from achieving personal satisfaction because I know I worked hard and did a good job (measured improvement in all areas for all students thanks to frequent assessment and observations), I get that this is a business and not a school.
Fool am I for showing up to work after a good nights rest instead of a night of partying, stupid me for making sure I dressed respectably, stupid me for spending countless hours preparing, grading, marking, and buying things for my students!
I should have kissed ass,
and maybe that way I wouldn't feel like I just ate
STUPID STUPID STUPID!
I hate that school because they have put everything into a perspective that I don't like.
What the hell am I doing here if it's not teaching?
P.S. I'm at a new school now which is amazing, supportive and where the students are overall pretty fantastic... But still this line of thought is ruining it!